borderline_kat (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} borderline_kat) wrote,@ 2005-11-25 15:59:00 |
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I am the queen of dumbness
I am stupid now I know that is true.
Today I met my dad for lunch strong willed to tell him that I am gonna quit my job or maybe do partime because I am done, this place and the people I work with are causing me a constant stomach cramp…
Guess what he told me ? basically that I am crazy that I can’t stay doing nothin’ and my salary is enough to stand a job that I totally dislike, 50 km everyday and so on…..
Determined to pursue my cause I was all “no way , Mici is gonna take care of me and I am gonna look for something more satisfying and anyway by now I can employ me for a while just in case..”
His response was disarming” I cannot because I have to employ your sis so that when she gave birth she can be paid without workin for a year or so…”
That actually proves that I am stupid.
Because damn, I am trying to be a good girl, I am trying not to worry him and what I do deserve for that ?? Some cash (huge) and a “be patient.”
It’s been a fucking year and a half of “be patient” ….
Maybe I’d better got my brand new car crashed by a dumb alcoholic and stoned boyfriend and then got pregnant but another stoned, idiot and good for nothing boyfriend …
That earns respect and fear….. and another brand new car between a month and naturally a house….. in which raise a shiny fake and soon to broken family…
Anyway I am gonna decide by myself whatever might be better for me ... no complaints, I am almost 30 ....
I am stupid now I know that is true.
Today I met my dad for lunch strong willed to tell him that I am gonna quit my job or maybe do partime because I am done, this place and the people I work with are causing me a constant stomach cramp…
Guess what he told me ? basically that I am crazy that I can’t stay doing nothin’ and my salary is enough to stand a job that I totally dislike, 50 km everyday and so on…..
Determined to pursue my cause I was all “no way , Mici is gonna take care of me and I am gonna look for something more satisfying and anyway by now I can employ me for a while just in case..”
His response was disarming” I cannot because I have to employ your sis so that when she gave birth she can be paid without workin for a year or so…”
That actually proves that I am stupid.
Because damn, I am trying to be a good girl, I am trying not to worry him and what I do deserve for that ?? Some cash (huge) and a “be patient.”
It’s been a fucking year and a half of “be patient” ….
Maybe I’d better got my brand new car crashed by a dumb alcoholic and stoned boyfriend and then got pregnant but another stoned, idiot and good for nothing boyfriend …
That earns respect and fear….. and another brand new car between a month and naturally a house….. in which raise a shiny fake and soon to broken family…
Anyway I am gonna decide by myself whatever might be better for me ... no complaints, I am almost 30 ....
